I sat in a group of people the other day, but I was not in their conversation. I was there, but then again I wasn`t. I felt swallowed up in a bubble of silence, gone from the real society. I felt dead to the world.
I wonder what`s wrong with me. Why I am so quiet? But when I hear advice I rebel against it. That`s not what I want to hear! So I don`t listen. I refuse good advice and wallow deeper into the mud of self-pity. ( Self-pity is hard. Bethany has some wonderful thoughts.) Into a world where I convince myself that I should change.
Is this you? Do you look into this mirror and see yourself? Stop where you are in this crooked path. Don`t listen to the world screaming in your ear. Listen for the gentle wind of God to speak to you. He tells you that you are redeemed, chosen. You did not happen by chance, he decided to create you exactly the way you are. So be still.
Greater is the one living inside of me, than He who is living in the world.
1 John 4:4
( Bart Millard)
This thought has lingered with me, I`m never going to get to ‘the spot’, the place where all my troubles talking to people are mysteriously gone. If you constantly look at it as a journey and think you`ll reach the perfect place in your life, it doesn`t work. The only perfect world is heaven.
An overwhelming lie plants itself in souls, that you are here and God is over there. But really he is right next to you. He doesn`t leave you to anguish in yourself. He is cheering you on and holding you hand. You don`t slowly build yourself up to please God and fall back down when you sin, your sins are forgiven right here and now. You may have consequences from that sin, but God is the best forgiver there ever was and He is ready for you.
Stop thinking you’re the only one. If you inspect the world closely you`ll realize the whole world is insecure. You look around in a room and everyone looks so confidant. But you`re not alone. So many people are right where you are. Feeling alone.
I get caught up in everyone who doesn`t hear me and forget all the people who do. I am uber blessed with so many glorious friends. They love me for me, and I love them. Find people that you don`t have to act around, you can be yourself. Don`t look at the ‘popular’ group because most likely you won`t be in that certain group, but find a group that you feel comfortable around. Then try to be open for others to join.
Do not conform yourself to this world. All you`ll get is a twisted personality shooting up in every which direction. Be yourself, because that`s how God made you, yes, just like you. You want to be that perfect person who always has the best things to say, but that`s not you. You aren`t supposed to be like that person. Imagine if every single person was exactly alike. Every personality is so unique, and they would all be lost in a monotonous world.
Finally, be still. You are not the one steering the ride, all you have to do it let go of yourself and fly on the wind of trust.
Be still and know that I am God.
The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still.