I embraced the new year with a heart full of inexpressible pleasure. I felt fresh and new. Then I realized Christmas break does end. Suddenly I realized, my carefree life of pure bliss frolicking around all day, was evaporating like smoke in the wind. School was approaching on the horizon attempting to seize me in its grasp. *Ugh.*
And now it`s here. Here with all the books and studying. Here with the stress and heartache. Though it`s hard to get back into the swing of things there is a good side to school. I can`t get my break back, can I? So it is best for me to start finding the good things in it….
I have been homeschooled my whole life, and I love it. I love learning and digging deep into books.
Routine. I work better with it, it gives more order to my life. I love the fresh feeling of getting up at six. The house is all quiet and dark. The only thing I hear is my own breath and moving. I could go through my morning and tell you exactly what I do every time, and maybe one day I will.
I watch myself writing this, chattering on about how everything does have a bright side.( Which is true!) But, I`m not feeling the sunny radiant feeling of the bright side. It`s looking kind of shady and ‘blizzardy’. I am determined, especially if someone will go with me (Readers?!?!), to keep looking high and low for it; to push forward and stop feeling quite so gloomy. Summer is only a semester away, compared to a whole two! There, that`s one thing for me. Where`s your bright side?